Two Cups Of Coffee

Hi

Diary

“Hey look, she is opening her eyes “Some familiar voice murmured

“Call the doctor as soon as possible “Someone else murmured, oh wait this is the voice that I totally recognize

it’s my MOM

“Are you alright sweetie?” she asked

While trying to process everything in my mind and trying to gain recollection from the past about the familiar pungent smell that surrounded me

And that smell was of none other than of my so called second home HOSPITAL

After blinking my eyes for few minutes I pulled myself up with all my strength to sit but due to weakness I was not able to do so

“Sweetie, don’t stress yourself up “my mother said

Now that I was in my senses I saw my mother, father, Shanaya and my older brother Tanmay beside me.

And then it hit in my mind that answered my all unanswered questions about what I am doing here

Fault was of none other than only one person VIVAN

But before I can catch upon that I got many questions in my mind

How everyone got to know I was in that position?

If they found it about that, then why they are not screaming at me about this?

And where is my phone?

To get all these answer I can trust only one person in this room that is Shanaya

But as soon as I want to ask about everything to her, doctor came and starting analysing me as soon as she kept her hand on my hand I felt a sharp shooting pain because when I saw she was taking out the bandage from my hand as well as I felt something heavy at my head and when I touched it, it was also covered in bandage as well

Seriously how much I was injured?

But as everyone say that maybe these scars will heal in a month or two what about the scars that is on my heart.

At last doctor examined me and gave my mother a happy news that I can be discharged by todays evening and told everyone to get out of my room

But as you know I need to know the answers of all the whos and whys I stopped Shanaya from going out

So let’s cut the chase and let me tell you how she got to about everything

“GPS” she said while giving me the look like she did the discovery of this technology by herself

“Care to explain me more miss Sherlock “I said with sarcasm, oh come on I was dying of curiosity that how did she get to know about this

“See its very simple, I was tracking you as soon as I got your message about your date because like previous date I was not sitting diagonally from you, and as well as I don’t want to take risk as I know right now you are totally naïve for this world but on the next thought I don’t want to stop from exploring as well. So the mid-way was to track you by your cell phone signal, but when I stopped receiving your trace. I got worried, but on other part I thought maybe you don’t have enough battery in your phone that’s why it got switched off. But my heart was thudding and so I thought to track your last position and I was damn shocked to see you in that condition

I then picked you up from there in my car took to hospital called aunty and said as my house is at stage of renovation so you fall down from stairs and landed at wood log and that’s how you got injured “

Right now I was looking at angel of my life there was one thing that was missing was pair of wings and white light from background to complete her attire but don’t worry it didn’t last for long as she took out her cell phone, I heard the sound of click and she got me captured in this way while I am drooling having bandage at my head and palm as well some scratches on my knee.

“Why the heck you did this?” I asked furiously

“Because it will remind you to not do anything without consulting your best friend “She said with proud

So at last I am shifted to my home from that dreadful place where I am again alone, I tried to open the door that I thought belongs to me, the door of meeting new people, the door to make me more confident but maybe I WAS WRONG.

Maybe life is like this, when you try to reach for something it runs away from you. The thing that is in my mind is not that Vivan did this to me the thing that stucked is what I did to deserve this amount of pain, this amount of grief. But is there anyone to answer me.NO

So when there is nowhere to go the best thing is to turn off your thought and listen the voice of somebody else exactly what I needed was MUSIC

I took my headphones put it on, closed the lights of my room as well as put aside all my thoughts there was a pin drop silence before I clicked on screen to play the song.

That silence was eating me up, that 1 Am silence is more irritating than anything. Maybe there are different type of chaos in the world that makes them confused from inside but for me this silence is killing more than any chaos.

Anyway I put on my headphones and whenever I am confused I just try to take signals from universe, So I put on my all songs on playlist to shuffle and tried to take out all my thoughts from my mind as what I need right now was peace of mind.

“The night we met” was the first song that popped in the list and blared in my headphones. This song was from the “13 Reason Why” one of the finest and my favourite series where the lead protagonist listens it for the first time at their prom night and danced with each other. I know this song is romantic and is close to my heart but for now these are the words that is making me remember about only one thing that night where I met him and I regret that moment

So to avoid more crying I changed the song and the second song that came was “The way I loved you “by Selena Gomez and I was concentrating on the lyrics.

“I’am a wreak inside

My tongue is tied and my whole body feels so weak

The future is may be that I really need”

Exactly this the thing I was feeling and thinking about something, we all say that I will love you forever to the person whom we have feelings irrespective of any circumstances that we will face in future, but today I felt the different aspect of Forever

Forever is something that never ends and the same is in the case of Infinity that also never ends, it means that Forever is something that doesn’t exist like infinity and maybe that’s why people say that  

Forever is a MYTH

In between Selena’s voice came the loud noise blaring “Lions in the wild”, this is the ringtone of my phone which interrupted my song and the screen was displaying the name “Shanaya”. I picked up my phone and the phone that was playing Selena’s voice before now is playing the rant of my best friend

“What should I do to make you open your room’s door? “she shouted angrily

This sounds to be pretty dangerous to me because

Firstly, its 1 AM secondly and the most frightening reason is that nobody wants to see Shanaya in her angry beast mode ever.

I opened the door and what I see is Shanaya’s angry face with two cups of coffee and earphone attached to the phone and phone was in her shorts’ pocket with one end of earphone in left ear and right coming out of right ear but the most important thing her barging in my room with force.

“Why were you not opening door, I was knocking and banging it for like past 15 minutes as well as balancing two cups of hot coffee for your highness “with that she kept the coffee tray aside and bow down for me”

Maybe we can’t remove the pain and suffering from life but a cup of coffee, a pinch of best friend’s hugs, with tea spoon of family’s support and at last a puff of magic of heart can make you capable enough to handle everything.